Bummer

Many times, people tell me I've got split personality. And sometimes, I feel there's another side of me. Just not yet unleash.

So lately I've been thinking about these two extreme personalities that I'd. And, I realise I don't know myself well enough to write a 1000 word essay of "Who am I".


Who am I? This question has been spinning in my head as though it was a 360 degree roller coaster ride that I've sat 4 years back.



I'm not sad. I'm just angry I don't know myself like how others do.

I hate the feeling of inadequacy. Then again, who doesn't?



Alright, nothing in particular has sparked this sudden influx of emotions. I just need to find a space to pen down these pent-up emotions. Shan't elaborate myself further.

I know I'll feel much better after penning them down.



I love these two girlfriends of mine.
But, why am I feeling so blue? It's all written over my face.

I feel the more I tried, the more I'll fall.
And each time I attempt climbing back to the peak again, I'll struggle even more.


When will I ever see the rainbow again?


I'm not losing myself.

So many thoughts un-verbalised. Sigh.

Labels: Melancholy, My thoughts

L.O.V.E

I love all the 10 babes I'm working with and I seriously don't wish to see any conflict happen among ourselves. You know... girls. Full stop.

On the first day I'm only require to work for 5 hours. Well! I still get to see some familiar faces here and there. Hehe.

Booth Babes competition starts at 12p.m to 1p.m 20th of september: If you want to mock at me, this is your chance! Vote for your favourite Booth Babes up on the stage. If you're a friend of mine, please be kind enough :] ! I doubt none :[ !

See you at Suntec Convention Hall 4th floor GCA; Games Convention Asia. (You can get freebies and free gaming like DOTA, WII, NITENDO... etc.)

I'm always around after the competition. And I'll be there as early as 10a.m. It's okay if you're ain't free to drop by, but do give me a call/message if you're there! *loves*

Pretty Sherry Cosplaying
Linda and Samantha was scolding me for being a lesbian stalker. Haha!
I mean she's really pretty, and she look like BoA Kwon. Owww*
I...just...can't...help...it! :P


With my dearest Hong Ling
I don't look good in white :(




Samatha, Linda and thy Anonymous
Both of them are looking good!



At Nokia Booth. Orange :] With my Nokia N95.
My job is to snap as many pictures as possible.
I secretly bluetooth this picture to my phone.
5 mega pixel!


Was working with Audrey, Alicia and Joyclyn at Nokia booth. It spells 2 hours of fun! All four of us were rather small size and we have to cut our T-shirt like crazy. They're really nice people to work with. What's best is I get to work with GCA Booth babe 2008 champion for Day 1, Audrey/Li ting. She's really outgoing and pretty in person, and that certainly explain her high votes! Can't be compared luh. Haha!

I'm so not prepared for tomorrow's competition. I hope I can dig a hole and hide my face in it.

Urghhh, everyone's so busy to buy some time for me :(


I really have darn limited friends man! *Heart them all tight*


Meeting Wan Zhuo tomorrow earlier! I haven't get to camwhore with her! Hope to see all the babes there.



Why does it feel to me like it's a sad-sad post...
Hmmm...
Sigh. Gone.

Labels: Melancholy, Work

Happy 49th month together hunny.

Everytime he leaves on Sunday night, there's a small part of my heart seems to die... Only to be revived when he returns.

I can only grit my teeth and use all my might to prevent the tears from falling whenever he turns away, knowing that I won't see him for the next 5 days or even a week.

I know as time goes by, we will both get use to this new routine.

P/s: Sorry for not blogging for the past few days, have been busy with boyfriend on the weekends; ( all the stay-over, movie marathon, cabbing, snacking and lazing on our comfort zone. We decided to skip the FIR concert on Friday night tho. We hate concerts and packed places.

We watched Prison Break throughout the whole of Singapore's 43rd celebration on the Saturday night. Season 2/3 here I come! )

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Whenever he left me, I just don't have the mood to move on with my life. Yes, I hate to be in a melancholic mood whereby everything seems less important. And I can't afford to neglect my work at this point of time.

I know I've got to be strong.
So give me the strength to move on.


Give me some time.

Till then.

I'm dangerously in love with you with you with you with you.

Labels: lovey-dovey, Melancholy

Happy 21st birthday Juan! Love you honey.


Yesterday was one crazy night. I hope the 4 of us can meet up again like what we did yesterday. I shall keep it all to myself since we all have our difficulties in pen-ing this down in words. I promise not to mention anything.



Thanks all for the care and what so ever to cheer me up. I'm okay.
I didn't blame anyone for this. It's okay.
It's just me. I'm never okay.

You're too good for me.
I guess I'll never be good enough for you.
Sorry.

Labels: Birthdays, Melancholy

Days like this...

When I just feel lousy, frustrated and a million other negative thoughts.

I just wish I could hide under my cuddly blanket and slumber all day. (Then again, the weather is darn hot!)

I don't know what's become of me. I'm laughing, I'm smiling, I'm happy, but deep down inside... there's this feeling. Some uncovered part of my heart that desires for more. More of what? I don't know, honestly.

And it's true, to some extent. I tend to look like I'm in a melancholic mood, because of my fucked-up face.

I think there was a time when my grins were wider and my chuckles were more jovial. I still smile and laugh now, but maybe... I just yearn to break down and cry away all the negative thoughts and feelings inside of me.

Maybe... just maybe.

Labels: Melancholy